Happiness and Obstacles

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I last wrote about health and in particular I looked into my own medical condition at the time. After a while my Psoriasis mysteriously “disappeared”. I am not even sure if that’s what it was. I tried both conventional and alternative medicine. At some stage I also tried visualisation, repeating of mantras and talking to the little red patches. I had a lot of trust in the holistic approach but I also gave my best hopes to the traditional one. None of them seemed to help. The power of thought was my last resort but I wasn’t sure of my own capability.

What really worked or did they all work on some level?

One thing was for sure. In my mind I set a deadline – I wanted the condition to be gone before the birth of my baby.

I also mention “obstacles” in my title and I will explain why. A few months ago I bought a pack of oracle cards. The first card I got was the Ganesha deity – the Remover of Obstacles. Maybe it’s just a coincidence but you know what they say about coincidences. To prove you this, I just went through the cards again because I wanted to write down what the card says. So guess which one I got – yes, the Ganesha one! It symbolises clearing away obstacles, protection and guidance. It also says that

whatever has prevented you from moving forward will soon be resolved, an obstacle is cleared and you are free to move on. The blockages you have faced were there for a reason and in fact are an act of divine intervention. Timing and circumstances were previously not favorable but now the path is clear and the stars are in alignment.

It is true that things were not going very well for the past while.

First I lost my job, which had already proved to be too stressful, and I didn’t have very good prospects of finding a new one. As a result my health, which wasn’t very stable, deteriorated even further. Also I was going through a period when I wasn’t happy with where I was living. These were the obvious “surface” factors. Deep within me there was and still is much more going on but I won’t get into those details.

So you see, there were a few obstacles.

But let’s look a bit closer at what had actually happened and believe me there was quite a lot happening in my life at that point…

After I stopped working I decided to take it a bit easy. I started writing this blog – something I always wanted to do and just enjoyed the beautiful relationship with my partner – the one thing that kept me going. I decided to take care of my skin problem and started acupuncture and some herbal treatment. I couldn’t yet move out of my current flat but my partner and I had started working on our new place. It seemed like things were settling into a “mode”.

My treatment had just started to show some improvement when one day I got a brutal skin burn. It is interesting to mention that those skin patches were on my legs starting from my ankles and spreading upwards. Another “coincidence” that implied I was sort of stuck and unable to move on. So my legs from the ankles to the knees got third degree burns from staying outside in the sun for no more than 40 minutes in late May. My skin was bloody red and the pain indescribable. I was pinned to the couch and could not move. I had to stop the treatment and it took me about two weeks to fully recover. The one good thing was that with my skin healing the red spots seemed to clear away…well, not for too long.

What caused that deep burn? Certainly not just the sun? Maybe the herbs I was using and the acupuncture worked as a trigger? Perhaps the fact I was pregnant?

Yes, I was pregnant but didn’t yet know. When we found out some time soon though, it clearly pointed out the path we needed to start on afresh.

Soon I moved into our new place which at the time wasn’t much more than a building site. A lot of work lay ahead of us and the clock was ticking. I was pregnant in the fifth month.

Anyone who has ever renovated a house knows what it is like but for those who haven’t – it’s many hours of scraping, plastering, sanding, painting, dusting, cleaning and again and again. And that’s just the finishing touches. Tons of dust…, that’s what seemed to bother me the most. Even more than the fact that we had to cook on a single ring camping gas stove, run up the stairs, where our only tap was, to get water and wash our dishes and ate sweet and sour noodles for about six months. But hey, we had stairs!

My due date was 4th of February and we did the final wash on the 5th. I wasn’t ready to give birth though, I needed to rest and enjoy the well-done work for a while. My wish was granted and our son was born on the 14th of February – the best present for St. Valentine’s.

And also my red patches were gone.

I will end it here but before I finish I will mention few more things that had happened in the meantime. I started some pregnancy yoga where we paid  some tribute to Ganesha (remember him?) as the one to remove any difficulties and bless us with uncomplicated birth. We did a thorough clear-out and de-clutter of the place and a lot of old and unwanted stuff was donated and recycled. Eventually we got interested in Feng Shui and re-designed and re-decorated the whole house just by our own devices. We gave it our all.

I’ll try to summarise. My moving out of my old flat and the renovation of our new place symbolises my own moving forward and transformation. The immense amount of work  done was something of penance. I was set free of my own self and began to discover new possibilities and a whole new life.

I was going to be a mother! And I embraced it with my whole being. The stakes were raised but I was ready to take up the challenge. My inner settings have aligned with my stars.

Obstacles have been cleared to make way for the “new” Happiness in my life.

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I'm Vilina Christoph and I share my journey of healing and transformation. My awakening was triggered by the death of my mother and sister of cancer. When the feelings became too much to handle, I started documenting my experiences of dealing with depression and anxiety, coping with the loss and grief, and the general lack of motivation and joy in life.  Since the beginning of this journey of transformation I've learned compassion, acceptance and love for myself and others. My mission is to encourage others to look into their pain and take on the path of self-love. By accepting who you are with all your imperfections, by loving yourself fully with all your wounds, you find the strength to be your most authentic self and you unlock your unique gifts in the world.

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