Finding your authentic blend of expression

Do you sometimes wonder who you are?

I often catch myself thinking: “I want to know what my life purpose is!”

Who am I? Why am I here? What am I here to do?

I’m telling you it can quickly get very tiring and overwhelming. But still I wonder.

You see, there’s this part of me that simply wishes to transcend the material. In other words, there’s this deep knowing that the material aspect of our life isn’t the full and whole picture. There’s so much more to our existence. And I just can’t put up with serving only to my material needs. Actually, I tent to ignore my physical needs more often than it’s probably okay.

So I ask, and I search, and I wonder.

I looked into the blogs and websites and social media profiles of women, and they all seem to be so certain about who they are – a mother, a teacher, a coach, a goddess, a priestess, a yogini, a healer, a writer, an artist…

I wish I could be so certain. The truth is that I love so many things and I can’t just choose one!

Yes – I am a mother to my beautiful boy, but am I only a mother?

I am a woman and I am devoted to the reawakening of the Feminine, but am I a goddess or a priestess?

I love expressing myself in writing but does that make me a writer?

My desire is to help others through sharing my own healing journey but can I call myself a healer?

I am creative but does that mean I am an artist?

Can I be all of the above things at the same time? And if yes, what would I call that?

Maybe the answer is “ME”. I can call all my interests ME and I won’t have to choose just one or two.

Why would we even want to put ourselves into one or a couple of definitions? Isn’t that putting ourselves simply into a box? Sticking on a few labels and wear them as a badge of honour – is that what it all comes to?

I feel that in order to fit into a tight box we have to give up a lot, don’t we? Some of us have done it successfully and have zeroed in on one thing and turned it into a rewarding venture. I wonder what was the price they had to pay – did they have to abandon certain interests in order for the others to take the centre stage?

Whatever the answer is it seems to me it’s too hard to fit in any of these definitions. Perhaps my life purpose is to be everything I love and care about at the same time and blend it into my own authentic mixture of expression into the world. And perhaps that’s what all the successful women have done already, leveraging their strongest potential as their main means of expression.

I believe you find this in the process of mixing. Right now I have my ingredients and I’m adding more as I go, the latest component being my attraction and devotion to the sacred feminine and its expression in every woman.

To use a very feminine and witchy metaphor – I am adding all my ingredients in my cauldron but I’m still working on my unique recipe for serving and healing the world, my own unique calling and purpose.

All I know is that I am the vessel and that through my authentic blend I will be able to do the magick that I came here to do. For now I need to trust the divine timing and order and simply stay open and devote myself to my experience.

I wish I could skip the hot messy part of the stirring but it’s in those moments that we find our secret ingredient and we become the masters of our creation.

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May you find your own unique ingredients and create the masterpiece of You! ~ I’d love to hear your thoughts. Let me know in the comments.