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My dance with astrology: on anger, revolutionaries and colouring
I have meant to write an article on astrology, what it means for me, and what I’ve figured learning about it. I should say I have near zero experience with astrology and do not claim to be even an astrology student. But I did read a few books and one lead me to the other. I started with trying to understand my birth chart with all its aspects, and I finished (for the time being) with the understanding that this chart is a star map about my current lifetime which my soul have chosen and written for me in order to experience certain things. And the same applies to you, to…
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Crisis as a call for change and how to integrate it in your life
“Crisis is a call for change and when it comes in your life, make sure you give yourself the necessary time to understand its full meaning. Crisis gives you the opportunity to find the hidden gold in your shadow.” I am just coming out of a personal crisis which started a few months ago and was triggered by the death of my sister. This loss followed the death of our mother 5 years earlier. Two people of my 4-member family are now forever gone from my present life. They live in my past and, perhaps, our souls will meet again in the future beyond. I dedicate my writing work to…
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Autumn and the renewal of the soul: on priorities, anxiety and social media
It is autumn out there. I have often wondered which season I like better – spring or autumn. In my home country Bulgaria every season is beautifully defined and we’ve got all four of them there. In my country of living Ireland we don’t always get all the seasons throughout the year but we can definitely get all of them in a single day! After being in Ireland for 8 years I have come to resent the summers and absolutely love the autumns. Summers often turn out cold and grey, and disappointing. On the other hand, autumns are warm, sunny and gorgeously colourful. Now I know autumn is my…
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The death of the self: on toddler troubles, being human and name change
Sounds like an absurd combination of things and what does it have to do with the self? So here’s what happened last week – a mush of emotional turmoil, child’s excrement and personal transformation. My 2 1/2 year-old son Sylvian woke up in the middle of the night with a dreadful cough. He was wheezing and it sounded like he was barely able to breathe. I’ve never heard him like that, it sounded like he was suffocating. Together with my partner we wondered shall we go to the Emergency department. A short while later my son went back to sleep, still wheezing but at least able to breathe. In the morning…
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Four things I’ve learned from going through a crisis
“A crisis gives you the opportunity to face your deepest flaws and fears, take responsibility for your life, and turn the pain something beautiful.” For the last 5 years I have been going through some tough times. Living away from my family and friends in a foreign country, losing two of my closest people to cancer and trying to cope with motherhood and unemployment is roughly describing the picture. Yet, these hardships prompted me to explore my life situation and find the lessons in it. Here’s what I’ve learned. 1. Take the Time to Process First of all that means to acknowledge that something is happening to you. Try not…
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Soul Searching
How did I get here? How did my consciousness and awareness come to this point? It is interesting to go back a bit and mention my old posts again, from two years ago. I can notice a lot of things I am writing to be really close to an intuition which is even stronger today. I was subconsciously touching on some points which today are well developed in my mind. They are much clearer and defined, and that’s because I am conscious about these things. I have read and researched them, and in a way I know what’s going on. I have to say that I am getting most of this…
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The death of the Ego
I will pick up from the last note in my previous post. Coming out from a major life crisis takes a while. In fact I don’t think you are ever to come out of it in one piece. You do restore some of your wholeness but you are never the same – a part of you is dead. And this is good. But you don’t quite feel cheerful about it – you do need to mourn the loss of that part of yourself and that previous you. And it is OK to mourn for a while. But it is not OK to get stuck there. And here comes another…
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Finding peace in the midst of a crisis
I am officially back to my blog after 2 years of silence. God works in mysterious ways! I went through all my previous posts and also published the last one which was left unfinished. I decided I want to share it all out even though it might not be perfectly written or even completed. It is part of me and this space here is a safe place for all of us to share weaknesses and strengths at the same time. It is somewhat hard to make the transition from 2 years ago to now, it feels like there should be a link, a passage, a connection of some sort…
