Happy where I am

I will make a confession to you:

I’ve never been happier in my life.

As I write this I can feel the tears pushing to come through. But these are happy tears. These are the tears of a revelation, of an epiphany, of a breakthrough, of a triumph!

In just the last few weeks I’ve come to a point of a full blown transformation. I’ve always kept the subject of transformation to the forefront, understanding it’s an essential step of the human journey and what I was going through.

Now I feel this shift happening in my body, in my very cells.

After two years of inner turmoil and actively working to heal myself, I can say I feel the rewards of all the heavy work I’ve done.

In just the last couple of days I’ve understood very simple truths. And I’d like to share them with you.

In my last post I mentioned the work of Abraham-Hicks and their talks about the Law of Attraction – a very simple universal law that governs our existence as humans. My wish is not to promote this topic but more to describe that this piece of information I received was like the last piece of the puzzle I was looking for.

I understood that it is purely my responsibility how I experience my life and my reality – I create those with my very own thoughts and focus. I understood that we are vibrational beings and we attract what we feel. Following this logic, if we want to be happy in our lives we need to focus on what already makes us happy and thus we create more positivity around us. I understood that by wanting something strongly, we actually create resistance around it since we focus on the not having of it, and our path gets obscured.

I’m not going to go into further detail here but I’d suggest you go ahead and listen to some of these teachings. For me, that was what gave me the final permission to be where I am, appreciation of what I’ve already succeeded in, assurance that I have the power over my existence, and the confidence that I can change my circumstances with the understanding of this simple truth.

Now I do not look into the future – I understand the future is NOW and what I choose to feel, think and focus my energy on RIGHT THIS MOMENT is what my future will hold.

Now I do not worry about how far I want to go or how I need to get there – all I have to do and all I have power over is the PRESENT MOMENT – which gives me a tremendous relief and also empowerment because I can choose what to focus on right now.

Now I do not look into others, comparing to them and criticising myself, knowing I have the ability to attract what I want only by choosing and  deciding how I want to feel right now.

And this isn’t to discredit any difficult feelings and emotions, it’s all natural to feel those as well from time to time. I’ve certainly allowed them and this process has helped me so much in healing myself. Sometime we absolutely have to face the darkness and I’ve spoken about this at length.

But once we come to a point of neutrality, having transmuted all the heavy emotions, we have the choice to pick our focus – what are we going to create from now on?

So here I stand in deep gratitude for my path and my journey, for my healing and transformation, in front of a whole new vista and a blank page full of possibilities.

And I choose happiness, I choose joy. I choose life.

And I know from the depths of my heart that everything else will be alright.

 With love, Vilina

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I'm Vilina Christoph and I share my journey of healing and transformation. My awakening was triggered by the death of my mother and sister of cancer. When the feelings became too much to handle, I started documenting my experiences of dealing with depression and anxiety, coping with the loss and grief, and the general lack of motivation and joy in life.  Since the beginning of this journey of transformation I've learned compassion, acceptance and love for myself and others. My mission is to encourage others to look into their pain and take on the path of self-love. By accepting who you are with all your imperfections, by loving yourself fully with all your wounds, you find the strength to be your most authentic self and you unlock your unique gifts in the world.

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