The power is within you

Last month was an emotional rollercoaster. And I know I say that more often than not. But I won’t be able to describe it any other way.

Now, I have learned that what really matters is how you respond to the adversity, what you do with your feelings, what you make out of your experiences.

It’s probably true that life is just going to keep throwing sour lemons or rotten tomatoes or whatever at us. But what counts is how we take that and what we make of it.

Are you going to drink the lemon juice or are you going to make some lemonade?

You see, the power is within us. The power is within our minds and our thinking.

And that’s what I’ve been tested to this month. I had to put the theory into practice.

At the beginning of this month my family and I had to find a new place to live and move. We went into the discomfort of this to respect the will of our landlord. Unexpectedly, he decided to not return our money deposit and we went into a financial strain. Now we’re gearing up to pursue our rights legally. He will have to learn the hard way because we’re not backing up on this one.

Getting the new place was also accompanied by drama – I went into a conflict with the property agent, being triggered by his attitude and behaviour. That on its own caused me pain but I managed to draw a valuable lesson out of the experience. Few weeks later we had a big leak in the apartment just when my father was visiting, which caused additional stress.

All this piled up and both my partner and son got sick and have been lying down for the last few days. Surprisingly, I’m not yet sick but that’s because I’m not letting myself to, although I feel I’m at the end of my tolerance.

Honestly, I’m looking forward to the end of this month and some holidays starting in August. I want to turn my back on all of this, run, hide and lick my wounds but I know that’s not the way to go about it.

I understand that this period of my life is an intense growing up and maturing course. I can see where I fall short and I realise what’s been asked from me.

I need to stretch out. I need to cross over. I need to consolidate the learned of the last few months, even years. So I don’t have to look back again and I can close this chapter of my life.

It’s about taking responsibility of your life – of your thoughts towards yourself and others.

It’s about your mistakes, understanding sometimes they’re necessary, and learning from them.

It’s about showing up, drawing boundaries and standing up for yourself and your truth.

It’s about you designing your life the way you want it and working hard towards that.

And all that is hard work but I’m grateful. It’s intense but I feel alive. I feel like things are happening so I get to be who I envision I want to be. I feel like I’m working in an unison with the universe not against it. I work for myself, not despite myself. And it’s real hard grinding work, although it’s happening mainly within myself, within my mind.

So, yes, the power is within you! And, yes, you have to stretch out just a bit outside of your comfort and experience some physical, mental and emotional discomfort. But! And I know you know this – it’s worth it!

You become a step closer to your truth, you become appreciating and loving of yourself and all the work you’ve done, you know you’re on the your path, you get to perceive your gifts and purpose in the world. It becomes clearer, brighter, you’re gaining speed, you’re getting good at this human life ride!

But it’s tough and it’s OK to feel all the feelings whilst the storm. We’re only able to see the benefit in retrospect of the hardship.

It’s the way it is. It’s the way we are. And that’s fine.

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I'm Vilina Christoph and I write about my journey of healing and empowerment. A family tragedy triggered my suffering from depression and anxiety+panic attacks. I was consumed by loss and grief, my sense of self was shattered. For the last three years I've been slowly piecing a new "me". I've been tracing my steps backwards, unlearning toxic behaviours and releasing outdated beliefs. It's been a journey of stripping down layers and coming back to my core, my heart, my soul. This is my life story of awakening, remembering my truth and becoming whole again. May it inspires you on your path!

5 thoughts on “The power is within you

  1. Wow, sounds like you’ve had quite a roller coaster of a month! Hope things are better for you in August. ❤️

    Not sure if this is of any comfort to you (I sure hope it is); according to an astrology reading for July and August, July was a volatile and emotionally explosive month, while August will be calmer and with warmth and relief. Not sure if it’s true, but it’ll be nice if it is. 😀

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